It is always the first step

Turf: kitchen
Dash: cooking pancake

In order for me to move forward, I need to take the first step. The first step is always being hard and risky but it's also the way in getting and achieving our goals. So, I'll take.

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Cocktail of Emotions

Turf: at my nest
Dash: watching vleague final



The past few weeks had gone fast, so many unexpected moments of twist and turns. Life has indeed miraculous. You will learn from it as the day goes and pass by.

If only I could pour out all my emotions here in this blog and pretend that no one would ever read this, but I'm still cautious about personal matters to be tackled on privately. On this past few days, rains pours heavily like it was going to flood if it wasn't stopped in an hour or so, but then, the news is liked rain it pours when it pours. It doesn't give any warning to give you a minute to prepare yourself. So, I'm flooded.

A news that no one wants to ever hear but it's part of life evolution, everyone has its time to depart from this world and travels to another life as it is already written. So, we met my cousin Ate EMs and break the ice as she told us that our cousin has passed away and it seems unexpected death, but who can expect death. No one, isn't it? Kuya Roy is funny, kind, nice, and always there to tickle your bones. There is no dull moment as I recall when he is still with us. He always smiles, laughs, jokes around, a part of him that curves in my memories. Ah, memories that I can cherish as long as I live. Though, he travels short in this so-called world. I guess, he traveled this life with fun and enjoyment. The only saddest part is we haven't seen each other for more than a decade ago, and yet, the absence make it forever. So, in this moment of solitude the only thing I could do is offer a prayer for him and pray for the repose of his soul, that he may rest in peace in the loving arms of our Lord.

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A crying sister over the phone from thousand of miles away across the world, where you couldn't give your shoulder for her to lean on, or hug her in your arms to give her warmth in this coldest time in her life. And the thing you could do is give her an encouraging and inspirational words to pacify her beefy feelings. But still prayers, is the best offering for our loved ones and only GOD can solve it.

And today, is a mixed emotion of feelings. I rather go first for not so sad but rather disappointing news, my favorite singer has come out in the open regarding her gender preferences. But I respect her disposition in life, since it is her personal matters and who am I to question about it. Yet, I'm a bit bruised about the news. Maybe because I had dreamt that she would fall in love with a man I had imagined for her (and that's the only reason why I'm battered blues about the news). Regarding my fandom status, I will be forever a Chasters and I wish nothing but the best in life for her.

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Like I always said to myself life is like a mixed of colors. Dark clouds may pass by in our lives but it will only pass by, because no clouds has stayed dark that has never been cleared. True enough. Today is VLeague Final Game 3, its Lady Bulldogs (NU) Vs. Lady Eagles (ADMU). I have been waiting for this bout for almost a week, though Lady Bulldogs is a Rookie in this final, but I go for them. Yes, I shout out for them to the extent that my lungs will come out. Indeed, they didn't fail me (as if they promise me to WIN in this final. Laughs.). Lady Bulldogs beat the Lady Eagles and have their first taste of the Champions. Though then I had been flooded with mixed emotions, but in the end it is washed away with happiness.

We deem those happy who, from the experience of life, have learned to bear its ills, without being overcome by them. --Juvenal

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The slowness snail and the guards

Turf: off the road
Dash:



Despite the humidity outside and a rare shower rain this unpredictable change of weather doesn't impede my mom from going out and as usual tagging me along wherever she goes.

So, as we went out I forecast the weather is pretty good today not so humid and it didn't rain at all, it's a blessing. But blah! I forgot my mobile, what duh? It is one thing I don't like when my mom is rushing me and I forgot something, even she forgot some of her important things like her: senior citizen card, eyeglass etc., So, not to ruin the good day I just forget all about it and just calm myself.

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As we enter the threshold into one of the buildings in Makati along Amorsolo, Manong guard stop us "pa-check muna po ng bag" as if you are an antagonist. Anyway, I knew they were doing this for the sake of the so-called "pag-iingat" like everyone in their eye is suspicious villain. If you spend half-decade of your life in another country without bumping any guards in any other places, and doing such and such to you, you will certainly aghast, maybe a bit annoyed because in the middle east when you're assuming bad to another person it is already " حَرَام‎ ḥarām" means "sinful" like wala kang tiwala sa kapwa mo. Then, another one Manang guard whose sitting at the information table greet us with her wide-sweet smile and say "paki-iwan na na lang ng ID" in exchange for a  Visitor ID card, then ask where to? As we proceed going to the second floor, Manang guard talk aloud as she said "all the office regarding reconciliation and payment are all here in the first floor".  I guess, I need to thank Manang guard for that warmth approach and her fast action.

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Another threshold, so, another guard to approach I let my mom proceed inside and settle myself in the waiting area. So, I'm settled in my seat I decided to read the book I bought weeks ago Twisted 9 by Jessica Zafra while Mom is answering the query form handed by the guard. I didn't notice the time flies but as I flip to every page of the book and finish every short story the time is ticking slower as I noticed there is a few handful people inside the room but it took time for each individual to finish their transaction. The same people queuing in the reconciliation then proceed to payment (as you can see no people stayed in the payment booth as they come and go). Mom is waiting to be next called in the payment booth (as if there is someone to be waiting when there is no one standing in front of the booth). Is it another delaying tactic or tsumitsika na naman si ate?. They move and act like a slow snail like a star walking in a red carpet with so many guards around while waving their hands to their fans.

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I hope this kind of slow act in any departments of government or private company should improve. The Filipino has been tagged in another country as "Masipag, Matiyaga, Magaling at Mabilis mag-trabaho" as wish it would be the same story here in our country.

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So, after the boredom and slight annoyance the only answer is eating out.

The fact is, that to do anything in the world worth doing, we must not stand back shivering and thinking of the cold and danger, but jump in and scramble through as well as we can. -- Robert Cushing

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