Fear will learn to fear me...IGNITE ME!

Turf: couch
Dash: watching SAS


I don't know how to catch my breath with this new book of Tahere Mafi, IGNITE ME {Shatter Me #3} series I am not yet started reading this book, but it garnered a very good reviews it gets almost 5 stars in Goodreads. The eye catching book cover makes me wanna download the book and I don't know if I'm ready to read this book. The emotions of the book reviews were to heavy for me to read it, ah-ha. So, I still need to preserve lots of courage for this book. I am getting kill joy here? Please, don't crucify me.

I am not sure if I give a spoiler here, but if I do just forgive me. I guess, be ready for any emotions it will give you, prepare yourself.

Reading, after a certain age, diverts the mind too much from its creative pursuits. Any man who reads too much and uses his own brain too little falls into lazy habits of thinking. -- Albert Einstein

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Wake me up...walk with me in my daydream

Dash: playing crossword
Turf: stretching at the sofa



Today I woke up at 4:30 am and I couldn't get myself back to sleep... I played on my tablet while classical music is playing in the background, hoping that I would still fall asleep but the dark room is now brightened up by the sunrays. My eyes still wide awake like an owl. I heard my stomach is growling so, I get up and eat 2 cupcakes to fuel myself a bit crossing my finger that I can sleep now. I covered myself with white and pink stripes, flowery cotton blanket. Suddenly, my childhood memory flashback, vividly.

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I believe....

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 As a kiddo whenever there is a weekend school break, or holidays me and my childhood best-friend Mayla use to go to the old hangar which is only a 10 minutes walk from home but with our small feet and little steps it took us 15 minutes to reach the place. I love the greenery place, the smell of morning dew, the stink of the rusty hangar, and the nostalgic effect of the abandoned place it seems that it has a lot of story to tell me, it needs an escape and someone to listen to her past. We love to lay around on the green grass while looking up on a bright sunny sky in the morning. I feel free and it seems that everything is just a hand to reach. Then our dreams started to built. I could see myself seated in the cockpit as the pilot flying happily reaching the apex of the sky, sometimes I could be the gay-friendly stewardess serving at its best. Mayla and I built a lot of dreams in that old hangar and the phases of dreams changes every time. We love to shout our dreams to the universe at the top of our lungs until we both gasping. The feeling is wonderful and relaxing. Then we will leave the place with so much joy in our hearts.
In the afternoon, we will go and hang around in the trees. I love climbing trees even to the steepest trunks of the tree. I love when the tree shaking me while hugging tightly to its trunks with full of trust that he wouldn't drop me to the ground like a hot potato while Maya happily watching me up there giving a cheer and shouting out her cares.
Sometimes, we sit under the tree just listening to the chirping of birds,  rustling of leaves, and the whistle blows of wind... it made our afternoon simply great and calming. 

I love these words from my favorite writer  Edgar Allan Poe

I love the nature and I would say I miss when the world was young when there is so many trees and greener place around the metropolis. Now, all you can see are the swarm of houses and high rising building, cars and worst TRASH everywhere, etc., I felt sad whenever there is a calamity during heavy rains that causes flash floods, and when the big earthquake destroys so many properties that even others left nothing but I need to wake up now and accept the reality that I couldn't change the world in my dreams and I couldn't fall back to sleep, again. So, it's time to WAKE UP!

"Keep away from people who try to belittle your ambitions. Small people always do that, but the really great make you feel that you, too, can become great." -- Mark Twain

» »♫ sweet dreams {are made of this}, marilyn manson ♫« «

The tide has been waved out

Dash: sitting
Turf: watching tv


There are points in time when you are at the lowest point of your life, the place seems lame and the skies is not so blue. You want nothing but someone to uplift you, someone who can be a shoulder to lean on, have an ear to listen to you, and someone who can give a pat on your back and says "everything will be fine...". Then you come across on the internet then this word pop up in front of you... the very words you want to hear....

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St. Francis De Sales answer my long thoughts, the question that bagging in my head... the weary feelings that never been fade away. Now, I am at peace with myself. 

When I cannot understand my Father's leading. And it seems to be but hard and cruel fate. Still I hear that gentle whisper ever pleading. God is working. God is faithful--Only wait. --A.B. Simpson

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Falling all over again with my first love....

Dash: watching
Turf: at the couch



Have you ever felt the first time when you see your first love, again? And the hair all over your skin is standing out and the butterflies flying on your stomach?

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Lately, I've been busy downloading e-books on my tablet and I would admit that I am happy how electronic can do a little magic to our lives, like other says "everything come easy nowadays, all is instant" in a minute you have your instant noodles, and there is fast food, etc., now even books could be this handy and easy, you don't have to squeeze yourself to swarms of people inside the bookstore, and get your legs tired after long walks from here and there. This afternoon, while strolling in the mall with Mom, my eyes caught up with a large name "BOOKSALE" my heart throb suddenly like I saw my first love, again and indeed it was. I couldn't wait to get inside that bookstore but I need to get my mom permission, sad to say that she is not a bookworm as I am. Mom easily gets irritated when I get inside the bookstore because it wasn't her cup of tea at all it doesn't give her enjoyment as it is giving me.

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As my finger runs all through the books old feelings rekindle, as I inhale the smell of every page it titillates me... the urge to buy the books as I felt before came back. It's been so long that I never felt it before, the feeling died so long time ago, but now it relives in me. I love the feeling... can't even explain how happy I am to be with my old love once again. As my journey takes me to another world of books and wonder I suddenly saw  the weary face of my Mom then the reality zap me back. I decide to leave the place at once, and forget about my love. I am a bit sad to leave the place but I know there is always the right time for everything.

Books are for people who wish they were somewhere else. -- Mark Twain

» »♫ dreaming of you, selena ♫« «

Feel blessed not stresseddd....

dash: writing
turf: sala



So, what keeps me busy nowadays, it's just nothing but e-book e-book e-book and lots of lots of e-books. I find so much interesting e-book to read, so busy downloading it on my tablet and read it all soon. Sometimes, I juggle to read 3 different kinds of books at the same time that doesn't seem sound productive, because the information that feeds through my mind gets juggled {ha-ha!}. So, I advise you not to do what I did, eh-he just in case you mind trying that, just don't waste your time on this kind of tactic reading. Because it won't work and you won't finish any book rather it makes you more lazy reading it again. It also makes me out of focus and so, just plan reading one book at a time and set myself a timetable to finish it. Hopefully, I can religiously follow my own timetable. So, I can finish 3, 4 or more books in one month.

And I've found this very inspiring image in Google that I even made it as my laptop background as my constant daily reminder to myself, when I feel like I'm in big "S". And indeed, it lifts up my spirit when blues trying to hit me, then suddenly like a bubble it pops-out and feel I'm on the right rhythm again.

Do not forget small kindness and do not remember small faults. -- Chinese Proverbs

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Parental Guidance is Advise

dash: out-to-gather
turf: sm sucat



January 10, 2014 time stamp at 2:00 pm location at SM Sucat. So, the 3 of us met, again. The friendship started when we were in high school {2nd year to be exact}, we even called by our classmates as Tres Marias as part of their daily annoyance greetings to the 3 of us, but we don't care. We don't even let them us collide with their petty bullying on us. Anyway, ranting is not the reason why I post again, or maybe you are even confused about the title post. So, it's me, Alma, Jean has been BFFss since 2nd year high but as soon as we graduated Alma flew off to Los Angeles, California to continue her study. Yes, she is quite lucky to have a Dad to support her study abroad. Me and Jean just stayed in the country, get on our studies in college but we have never been in the same school in college, lest the 3 of us continue to send letters to each other {we are quite classic, isn't it}. Me, is a total shy type girl, Jean is the talkative, nice, and always been smiling, Alma is the fighter among the three of us. But we never expected that Jean would first get married and would never finish college. {I hope I can post our picture of us 3 not until I get a copy from Alma}. So, what the post all about? So, we met. Chat a little. Eat together, then our conversation brought us the past, the present, and the future. In the middle of our conversation Alma took something out in her knapsack and its just a token of her kindness after her long absence...tadaaa!!!

victoria's secret sensual blush lotion and parfume

having healthy appetite with Alma's lovie....

our grumpy look... we have lots of fun

I hadn't expected this kind of bold gift from her...really SENSUAL! that is the reason why my post is titled like that, I don't what to be given a wrong connotation regarding this item. Maybe because she wants to tease me, and she never thought that I am not committed right now. So, whatever the reason she gave me this kind of present and she told me why {and I can't tell you, sorry I want to keep it a tough Lena's secret..Ha-ha!}.

About the product, never mind the name of it, you'll definitely blush with the smell...I love the tutti-fruity smell and it really long lasting, and feel fresh all day. The lotion is not sticky and it quickly dries up in your skin, it glides smoothly. And the body spray wow it booms with a thousand of fragrant scent spritz on your body that leaves spark. -- Dsiclaimer: anything written here are just by my own thoughts and  photo are mine otherwise stated. 

Be courteous to all, but intimate with few, and let those few be well tried before you give them your confidence. -- George Washington

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